Monday, Feb. 27, 2006
It's coming too soon, I cannot take it, oh dear me. Stupid CTs. Scheduled to be right after March hols. I should have signed up for some activity during the march hols so that I can use it as an excuse not to do well. But that's not the way to go. I'll still have to explain to Mr Goh and MOE why I said I can manage my time well when my results are so sucky. I dread the day results of the March CTs are released. I can feel a B and a C. I know, everyone wants to roll eyes at me now. *sighs* We all have different standards, but ultimately we just want to meet our goals. And mine happened to be one that is rarely heard of, except from 15 people. Interestingly, most of them are in performing arts!! Either the performing groups are super slack or people who join become smart or smart people are attracted to such CCAs.I mustn't think this way. I have an aim, I want a scholarship. I want to do 3 S Papers so that I can better my chances of getting a scholarship. I don't want to disappoint anyone, especially myself. I hate it whenever I don't do my best and it just always happen. I'm always so messed up, only I don't appear that way to everyone else. But it's just personal opinions so everyone thinks differently. I must be nice. I must be hardworking. I must get that scholarship.
Time to go. I think I wasted time online. Chem SPA today. I don't know how well I did. But I don't really care? It's just weird isn't it?
Grr
Happy end of Feb to everyone.
