Ziauddin Sardar, "Nothing left to belong to", 2002
To 'know thyself', as Socrates put it, is a fundamental human urge. Identity supplies a reassuring sense of coherence in our increasingly frenetic lives. From a sociocultural perspective, it is a label which gives us a clear idea of where we belong, permitting us not only to recognise ourselves as part of wider community but also appreciate differences in others. On purely pragmatic level, it functions as a passport which permits social integration and a tool kit to facilitate the smooth conduct of our daily affairs. In a more profound sense, identity acts as a compass which not only directs us how to treat our fellow man, but also provides orientation in a dizzying world devoid of moral absolutes. Finally, on a philosophical level, identity acts as a kind of depth gauge, helping us to plumb our inner selves to discover who we are, endowing our lives with purpose and meaning.
Seems like an identity is super useful isn't it? Do I have one? I'm not too sure. I hope I'm just unable to pen it down. Stupid personal statement. But sometimes when I walk home from school, I feel as though all that happened in school was just a dream and I become really confused as to what is real. But it doesn't really matter because according to SP's logic, everything is a lie because when we view them, we will be swayed by our own perspective and therefore, they can't be the unbiased, absolute truth. At least I'm not the only one deceiving myself.
Something funny happened yesterday... but since it's not a good funny thing, I shall not say anything. I don't want to laugh at myself in the future, the same way I'm laughing at who I used to be. >_< but I prefer who I used to be to who I am now. At least I was kinder with nicer thoughts. Now I'm turning into a mean spirited, petty, miserly, nasty jerk. I don't know why but it's happening. Everyone will be nice and tell me no, I'm not like that but I know what's appearing in my mind everytime something irks me. I don't being angry at people, even if it is momentarily. A lot of bad things can happen in one moment. But anyway, time to look back at my past.
4/6/2003, Wednesday. Naturally there was the I HATE WEDNESDAYS! thing. Other then that there was nothing much.
4/6/2004, Friday. I did this quiz and a Golden Sun quiz. Remus is hot stuff, a near ideal boyfriend.
You are Remus Lupin,the kind werewolf and possibly the sweetest person in the world^^ You like to read and love hanging around with your best friends Take this quiz at quizilla!
4/6/2005, Saturday. No blog entry but we performed at Taman Warisan on this day!! The next day I blogged about the performance, how silly I was, jumping up and down so that I appear in the photo with our Prime Minister. Oh and I had a dream then about young Constance and Zheng Liang fighting over a teddy bear. It was really funny. But I would have preferred dreams about saving oreos =)
I still think oreo dreams are nicer. Nothing to do with Constance and Zheng Liang, they're really nice people in reality but I never get to see oreo in reality so I hope to see him in my dreams again. I had a near nice dream last night though... I think I was trying to save myself... so that I can save the world!! Haha. I was hiding at some cute guy's shopping mall... he actually has this penthouse suite in the shopping mall! And nobody knows it's there so all the bad people couldn't find me. But there was this family there, a woman and her son and daughter... it could be the cute guy's family... but the cute guy looked so young and single. I don't know, he just had this bachelor look. I'm so glad it is the holidays, then I will have nice dreams with biscuits. Haha.
No, I must restrain myself. It's not good having so many biscuits. Biscuits are dry and 'heaty', very bad for health. But it is more of the adventure and excitement in my dreams that I crave, not the cute guys. Which reminds me, I changed my layout! I love this layout.... as much as I love my 'imagination' layouts. =) Maybe it is because of the character Shuang that makes it like an 'imagination' layout. It is for my dreams since I enjoy those dreams so much. =)
I managed to survive 5 days without my parents. I thought I was a spoilt brat... but I am because I never did any household chores except washing my plates and make my bed and stuff which I usually do. I will never survive overseas. Not that I'm going anywhere... I don't know. 2030 for SATS. Not even a perfect score for Maths. And Dorea had a perfect score for critical reading. But she's good. But SATS is useless when applying for Imperial College or NUS. Oh well...
I love my family. =)
