Blogging now so that at least I can have a weekly update to look at or it'll be really sad when I look at my past entries which I'm suddenly fond of doing nowadays. It's really fun I guess to see how childish you were, only to realise that you'll look childish now to your future self.
Recapping on what happened last week:
Monday - Went out with the angklung exco girls (Joyce, Jie Ying, Constance, Ilona)... actually I can't remember what happened even though it was quite recent. We talked about angklung stuff and something nice happened but we can't say a thing about it or the nice man will lose his job, maybe tortured and whipped and left in some jungle. And we window-shopped a lot but I don't think anybody bought anything.
Tuesday - Busy trying to finish my GP homework. My essays are now only 2 pages long and my AQs only 2 paragraphs. In terms of linguistics, I'm a hopeless case. And to think I wanted to take a 3rd language. At least Chinese AOs are over... at least the paper. Now I just need to brush up my listening and talking skills which I'm not good at.
Wednesday - Went out to celebrate Prissy Tan's birthday with Elaine, Constance, Shirley, the birthday girl, Lia. We walked a lot finding places to take photographs... again, nobody bought anything until we went to the King's bookfair thingie at Paragon basement. I didn't buy any books at all... some of them were interesting... but not interesting enough. I guess nothing interests me these days. Except really pointless stuff. Like making Christmas cards when it's 6 months away.
Thursday - Finally finished my GP homework. proceeded to file/stack my notes nicely... it took a day because I had many long breaks which I used to read the back volumes of Magister Negi Magi.
Friday - FINALLY started studying SOMETHING. Physics because not only do I have little interest in it, I seem to be losing my luck when it comes to solving questions during exams. I shall work a little harder this time.
Saturday - More physics. I'm sure I did something today but I can't remember what. I have a really selective memory that thankfully remembers all the concepts and formulas I need during exams. I'm sure there are lots of things cluttered in my memory, just can't seem to recall what these things are.
Sunday - There was this mean bird (I think a pigeon) perched on the top of my window pane which I usually leave open and it didn't want to fly away no matter what weird sounds I made or what I said (which it probably did not understand) because it was raining. I decided to be nice and leave it alone (also partly because I was afraid... that it might fly in, scratch me or turn out to be a powerful shaman who decided to occupy the body of a bird). Anyway when it left, it decided to leave me a parting gift which happened to be the yummy grubs that went through its digestory system and out onto my window pane. Stupid bird, it should grateful that I did not slam the window shut and cause it to break its horribly red feet. Hmmph. I can't believe I had to clean after it. I don't think I like birds very much. At least not from today onwards.
I really need to start on my personal statement and reference thing soon. I realise I haven't been doing anything at all. Everyone has done some kind of CIP this year and I haven't done any. I'm not even sure if I want to serve the community anymore. And that's a terrible thing to say.
I have no idea what I want these days, no dreams, no aims no goals and no future if this continues. I don't know which university I want to go, I don't know what course I want to take, I don't know if I want to go for a scholarship. So much for being a 3 S papers student. But I think I wanted to take 3 because I don't know which S papers I want to take. Let's do a review of my academic choices (it's colour-coded so you can skip the entire section. I'm just typing down my thoughts):
Sec 3, I took triple science because I wanted to take 3 sciences and I was upset that they didn't offer a 9 subject option. On hindsight, I doubt I'll be able to cope with 9. J1, I chose to go to NJC. I'm glad I made that choice or I'll have nowhere to go after the first 3 months. I guess I liked being one of the best so I didn't pick one of the better schools. I'm THAT competitive. In the 1st 3 months I chose to Physics, Maths C, Economics, Chemistry because nobody wanted to try FM with me and they all seem keen on BCME or triple sciences. I guess Mrs Poon's talk was so inspiring that we ended up choosing PCME. Haha. And then I changed to FM because I felt that it would be safer with something I am more confident with.
There you have it. I've always chosen the safe options. At this point, the safe options would be to study extremely hard and hope for the best. Actually, no, that's the easy way. I would love to do that. In fact I'm doing that now... the hope for the best part at least. No. This won't do. I'll study very hard, complete my reference and personal statement by the end of this month, think of a way to get my statement vetted because I'm too embarrassed to let anyone I know read it.
I can't make it into MIT! Haha. 690-770 for verbal, 740-800 for math. Or at least that's the 50% range. Other than that, I would have a good chance since they look at ALL your JC CT results. But I prefer going to UK. I suppose for me it's either Imperial or NUS. At least I got something down. The difference is one is here and one is in the UK. I should search for more options. As for the course, it'll either be engineering or science. The safe option would be electrical engineering... but the only things I know about electronic are logic gates and analouue and while logic gates are fun, analogue is just okay. I tried doing elimination for the courses... but it just doesn't work because I only strike out those that deal with Biology or Vetinary Sciences. *sighs* Oh well, I'll think about this somewhere else. Shall not make this blog entry super long and boring.
At least I got the other types of dreams, those you get while sleeping? =) Those are fun, at least for me since most of the time I see exciting stories (only I forget them easily). I wonder if everybody's mind vision is about the same... because mine is rather dim (as in very little light) and while you can tell what you're looking at, the details aren't very clear... especially for people. For me I know I see 2 eyes, 1 nose, 1 mouth, but the identity of the person seems to be supplied from the back of my head. I see an oreo and it turns boy-shaped and I look at him and somehow I think that's a cute guy but I can't see what are the features that make him cute. I just know he's cute. I guess it's easier that way or I won't think he's very cute at all. It's hard to find a face that fits certain characteristics. There are a few times I get to see some things a bit more clearly though, mostly objects. I had a dream that there was this stall selling earrings in a flea market and I could tell what the earrings are like. But everything still look rather dark. Oh well... enough about that. Better end off soon.
As usual (the terrible things about blogging weekly is that the days of the week will be the same:
12/6/2003, Thursday - a list of things to do during the holidays. I think it was the SARS period so we had our holidays later as the teachers used one of 2 days to give out our marked exam scripts. Interestingly, I'm still trying to do the 2 things I stated in the list: lose mass and gain height. I'm not sure if brush up on Chinese oral skills count.
12/6/2004, Saturday - Nothing. SERIOUSLY nothing. I only blogged on 18/6/2004 and 4/6/2004. At least there'll be something next week.
12/6/2005, Sunday - Nothing but 1 day ahead I did this quiz. I did it again and I got about the same results (89%). 3 days ago I blogged about wanting to buy a digicam instead of my zen neeon, about my religious stand which is balancing nicely on a spikey fence (dynamic equilibrium!!), about having a dream about someone (not oreo but more goodlooking and dangerously charming =D), about my fantasies and the quote from Solitaire Mystery by Jostein Gaarder that really struck me: gEveryone is free to fantasise about what he likes, but it is also his duty to make his fantasies aware of the fact that they are just fantasy. Otherwise, he is making fun of them, and then they are entitled to kill himh, King of Clubs
Oh!! I shall do something that I wanted to do last year but didn't. Come up with random statements each day and arrange them into a story. I got that idea from Solitaire Mystery where all the cards had to come up with a sentence and when they said it in a certain order, there'll be a story. For every blog entry, I shall have a random statement at the end. Since I'm blogging on a weekly basis, by the same date next year, I should about 50 statements.
Random (or not so random?) statement 1:
Because the sun will rise the next day, you have to be taken away from your dreams, back to reality where you no longer dream but work just so that you can have a chance to dream.
