This is a photo that was taken during our class outing yesterday. We went to Marina Bay to eat steamboat... I got to eat for free because Karunan had to leave early and I came late. I didn't take much though, I felt a bit embarrassed and the curry puff I ate earlier was threatening to come out in the reverse direction. No, I'm not turning bulimic. It's just the curry. We talked and Zhong Lu & Mei Yu was entertaining us with LAME jokes while Ferro told the story of the yellow ping pong ball and Elton told a similar story about the monk and not being able to tell. Elton gave us his opinions and predictions on what we'll be like in the future too... we played games what were really really FUN and childish but fun. I guess childish games are the most interesting and enjoyable. This will probably be the last time we get to play such games. =( I don't like growing old.
As usual, I've not blogged because I'm too lazy to. But today I shall not be lazy. Because the only other thing I can do now is work.
But it's just as well, my life isn't very interesting to blog about. I mean I don't eat chilli powder that can move. My life is dull and simple and easy. I guess that's why Elton (who was predicting which path my classmates will take in the future) thinks that I'll be the happiest in my class. Either I'm a very happy person or my class is very very sad. Or Elton's wrong. Or maybe it's a combination of all 3. I don't know.
I'm a very very lucky person. I'm plain and normal, very normal really, with a pleasant normal personality and character. I may seem really smart but there are really many people who are better than me... my IQ is just slightly above average... as for diligence, I think it's average NJC standard (which is quite good I suppose but normal for NJC students). I'm not outstanding at all, just an ordinary girl. It's really amazing how I managed to get through all these years. I suppose that's the hidden talent of ordinary people?
The interview with the J1 sapphire scholars made me realise that I'm not as good as they are. Watching the them talk about superconductors was really enjoyable... but it made me feel very guilty. They have passion. I don't. At least not for a certain topic. I don't seek fun in Maths or Science even though I like those subjects. I'm not even that keen when it comes to Harry Potter. I just laze around and let things happen. And good things always happen to me. If something terrible happen, I don't think I can adapt. But I cannot stop, I cannot give up.
It's really time for me to start working towards something. Anything. At least I'll be taking a first step. I mustn't be afraid. But I always am. Which reminds me of something that happened this afternoon at J8. After Constance was picked up by her parents, I went back to meet my mother. Along the way, I passed by the group of boys who were seated on the bench in front of the MRT station. And one of them enunciated the monosyllabic term that sounds like a deep 'a" and used to address someone (I'm sorry but even though I'm quite proficient in Singlish, I'm unable to type it. I don't think anyone can unless he really researches on the correct spelling). I thought he wanted to speak to his friend so like any normal passerby, I just did my job of walking by them and was turning a corner but felt weird because none of his friends said anything. I thought maybe I dropped something and they wanted to point that out although I don't really remember holding anything that could have dropped. Still I can be so absent-minded so I decided to look back at them. And they were all staring at me with very expressionless looks. I got scared of them and I didn't bother to go back and check if I dropped anything. Anyway, everything seemed to be intact so I don't think it was anything important. At most it's my NJ metal button or something. I have 2 spares. They can keep those as momento. But I think I took out 2 when I was about to bathe. So young and yet so scary. So old and yet so scared. Don't YOU laugh. Hmmph.
Anyway, farewell's next saturday and I'm out of money. I doubt I'll be getting anything for any juniors except my direct successor. Still, I think we and the juniors are pretty on about this. I mean we didn't even take a neoprint together last year with the previous exco. But it'll be scary trying to fit 16 people into a neoprint machine. I haven't had any angklung withdrawal symptoms like the rest of the exco... or any kolintang withdrawal symptoms. I guess my brains have not came to terms with the fact that I've already left. I felt a bit sad today, being at a practice because I'm not playing... but no withdrawal symptoms yet. This shows that Angklung is a healthy addiction!
Random (or not so random) statement 4:
"She is afraid but she will be brave. She is weak but she will be strong. She is insignificant but she will be important. She has only dreams now but she will have a reality shaped from her visions"
At least now it'll sound more like a story instead of some weird inspirational thing.
