[edit] Decided to add this photo of Jie Ying's dolls! Cool aren't they. From the left, for Ilona, for Constance, for Joyce (pink hair and mini angklung!), for me. So cool. Anyway, I'm really caring too much about things that are not important at all and I'm really going to turn evil soon. Self-control. I must practise self-control. [/edit] I've decided to recount about farewell now before I turn into a monster. Don't ask, I'll explain later.
Today was finally the long awaited farewell which was held in school. Many of the seniors, including me thought the juniors might hold it in a nice restaurant with us wearing nice clothes eating nice food. Well... we got the nice food part... and i guess the NJ school uniform is nice... lol
The day started out with us going to the grandstand to play games. The games were quite entertaining although a certain group that likes to go 'ting!' decided to twist the rules so that they can win. And then we went to LT3 to watch the video that Mr Fuad made for us seniors... it made me feel a little sad to leave... time passes so quickly. Not too long ago, we were saying goodbye to the seniors, now we have to do the same to the juniors. It's just weird. And maddening. Why do things change so quickly? Indeed, time and tide awaits no man. I really need to stop procrastinating and start doing something. Anything.
Anyway, the juniors disappeared halfway during the farewell (I turned back to look and realised they were all gone) and came back with angklungs in their hands. Angklungs for us. I got a 2 atas. I knew it was a 2 atas the moment I played it. Maybe Constance played so much of 2 atas that the sound became immortalised in my brain. If only the words in my lecture notes could do the same. I love my angklung. It even has a 'chiobu' red ribbon (according to Shweta!!!) tied at the side. Salihin has a 2 atas too! I'm sure all the exco girls are jealous. Haha. I don't know where to display the angklung though... it's really too big even though it is an atas.
And then there was the gift exchange between the 2 excos... and among the exco. Really really nice presents! I absolutely love them. And the people who gave them. Shall describe all the presents later.
I was looking back at what I blogged around this time in the last 3 years. It's mostly about National Day and how I like(d) red and white and Singapore but there's something about angklung... or at least the kolintang:
"Now for the National Day Celebrations bit, we (angklung ensemble) performed and it's encouraging to hear from my friends and ex-classmates that my playing was nice. I don't know how I'm going with the bass kolintang because I still haven't mastered control over it. But that's alright because even after 10 years with the piano, my fingers and wrists are not exactly as one with the piano. At least we have reached an understanding though I'm not sure what kind of understanding. I like the piano better partly because it's more versatile but they are both quite different instruments. At least I'm better at the kolintang than the violin. Lol. It's going to take me forever to figure out the right position the press the strings down and the correct technique of using the bow. Well, I think I need to tune my reflexes and coordination with the kolintang, to make my mind focussed at least on the mallets so they reach the planks at the right instant and to stop my mind from fixing itself or creating new scores. It's hard to explain and I don't care to explain but let's just say pressing your fingers on a key and using a mallet to strike one are 2 similar yet different things. Now isn't that complex? Lol."
I've reached an understanding with the kolintang... I think a bit after I learnt to play Wave of Hope last year for Colours Award. I'm not sure if it's deeper than the one I have with the piano... but I cannot really compare because I haven't played the piano for ages so the 'understanding' has not been renewed yet. I will play soon since exams are coming. I'm not sure why but I prefer to play the piano during the exam period. In any case, I like both instruments a lot... although I have a stronger friendship with my own piano at home I think I'll like all the bass kolintangs I see. Very patient, even-tempered instruments in my opinion... although there's the jumping planks bit. I guess I have a affinity with wood. Most pianos have the black glossy finish that covers the wooden bits of the piano. Luckily my piano is not vanished with black.
Anyway, coming back to farewell, it's really nice! Thank you juniors for the lovely farewell, I wish you are the best... if you ever come to my blog hahaha.
As for the gifts I receive.... super cool! From Jenny & Man Zhi, a giant pig marshmellow pillow thing; From Zi Hao, a necklace with a glass pendant; From Zheng Liang, a keychain with my chinese family name on it (THE LIM FAMILY ARE THE BEST! I love my family. But that's seriously not the point here); From Constance, a HOT DARK PINK necklace; From Joyce, a notebook with her lovely note written in side (she love me more than she loves the other exco girls!!! I'm sure you all know that deep down in your hearts. =P) and a flower with my name on it; From Ilona, a eeyore soft toy with my name on it; and from Jie Ying, a uber cool Barbie doll dressed in black tube top and sarong. *hearts* I love all my presents. And the cards written by Sheila, Shu Xian, Xue Si and unknown (-_-").
Lol, I played a bit with Jie Ying's barbie doll... it has been 6 or 7 years I think since I've thrown away my last Barbie doll so I had this urge to comb the doll's (rebonded) hair. Too bad I couldn't find my mini angklung to put with the doll. It would fit so nicely. I know it's somewhere at home but I don't know where. Same situation with a lot of my belongings. I know it's there but I just don't know where. My room is becoming very cluttered. The sofa is now fully filled with my things. I really need to clear my room soon... I don't think my things can survive till 'A' levels.
And finally the little comment I made in the beginning about turning into a monster. ...... actually I don't think I want to say anything about that. All I can say is that I need to put being nice on my 'to do' list. I don't think I've been as kind as I should be in the last 2 years. So many times when I could have done something that would have helped people or made things better but I didn't. If only I thought a bit more. I'm already 18, no longer a child. Ignorance cannot be an excuse.
I read Constance's blog entry (I'm the kind who cannot write or type something in one shot. No wonder I never do well for GP) and teared a bit when I read her message for me. We've came a long long long way. I really really need to put being nice on my 'to do list' or I'll never be who I am/was(?) again. For everyone and myself, I must not turn into an indifferent monster.
I shall not type any message for anyone here because not many will read it anyway. My blog is really lonely. But you know I love you and I think you're wonderful people. Or maybe I'll type a bit for the people whom I know will come here.
cons: If I weave magic with words, you must be the needle that helps to make the tapestry of love and friendship. >_< Oh gosh that sounds so mushy. But you get what I mean. Don't want to repeat myself but I think you're easy to listen to (because you have interesting things to say), always concerned for others' wellbeing and kind. I really enjoy being with you, teasing you and I really love all the little things you do for me like staying in ARC and the drawing thing you did for me.
joyce: Thanks for the photo in the notebook! It's 12.30 am now so I can't really beat your 1am. Thanks for remembering all the small little bitty details about me (like OREOS! if you haven't mentioned him, I would have forgotten about his existence and the dream will die), I really appreciate that, no wonder you love me to bits. I love you to bits too! I really like your nice dimply smile (2 SIDES!!!) and humourous blog entries and listening in to your conversations with Constance.
ilona: =) Actually you're really not as slow as some people think. You're especially sharp with sarcastic retorts!! So terrible! Haha but you're still so sweet and cute and charming and it's really fun teasing you and crapping with you and hearing you say "What nonsense!" Hehe
jie ying: YOU FINISHED BLOGGING BEFORE ME!!! HMMPH And NOW YOU'RE GOING OFFLINE! Hahah. Actually this is the last paragraph I'm going to type because I've typed everything else below before I did the messages. Miss slow slow!! I love the doll!!! You rock, it's such a cool idea! You pretty, pleasant, patient girl, it's really fun talking to you and you always accompany me to take the bus while the rest goes MeRTing. Hope we can continue BUSsing together.
*sighs* Why is it so easy to take things for granted? Why is it so easy to pretend that nothing has changed? Why is it so easy to think that things are the way they used to be? Why is it so easy to wish that everything will remain the same always? Is the beauty of life really that everything we have right now will disappear with time? That we can cherish what we have now and learn to make the most out of the limited time we have? I have not grown up yet, and there's only a few months left before everything will change. Will I ever come to terms with change? Will you?
Random (or not so random) statement 4
"The glass beads fall and turn into pretty flowers that fly onto the back of a donkey in the woods. The donkey cried pink tears of wisdom that told him the happiness he feels now will come and go. The doll in black batik comforts him and plays a tune with bamboo, painting photos of soaring pigs that go over the rainbow."
That was very delirium-ish. I love Delirium. She's really my inspiration but I don't think I'm ever in her realm. More of Dream and Destiny... and all the others too.
