There are many things I known I need to do but I'm just delaying because I'm too lazy. If I continue this way, I'm going to turn into a pig and my average IQ will dip.

Work takes up 12 hours of my weekdays and somehow I think it's contributing to my brain deterioration because the work is rather routine. I don't like changes and I like something safe but I want something exciting. I'm really terribly hard to please. Very soon I won't even be good at what I'm currently (well hopefully still) good at.

I'm growing old. I think I'm just skipping the whole young adult stage and going into midlife crisis. But yet I still have this huge ego, thinking I'm still so wonderful. I'm afraid that the dream will just end and I'll just find out I'm just another average soul. Isn't that very similar to what's happening to the character Li Nanxing is acting as in the 9pm Channel 8 show?

Talking about shows reminds me about the 7pm show every weekend on Channel 8! Nicholas Tse is hot! I didn't realise he can sing too, the opening theme is just so nice. I was shocked to find out that it was sang by Nicholas since he doesn't seem to have that kind of voice.

I haven't drawn anything lately except a little angklung thing which didn't turn out that nice... at least I got to experiment with some colours. I always wondered how to create reddish-blonde hair. I think a bit more red in the shadow would do the trick... or perhaps in the highlights instead? I'll need to experiment somemore I guess...

Then again, since my drawing skills are also becoming worse than it already is, I probably won't need to experiment anymore. Anyway, the storyline has turned haywire. Khyrella used to be a sweet innocent girl but now she's angry and defiant. Mikhail used to be charming and witty and perhaps a little eccentric but now he's reticent and protective. And the plot is so dependent on each character's personality and so complicated, I probably won't come up with a proper story. Not that I'm going to draw the story out anyway, seeing that my drawing is worse than my plotting.

As you can see my life is boring!!! That's why I don't update so often. It's really to save everyone from boredom lol although I end up forgetting about interesting things that have happened. There was a Fila warehouse sale last week at the building in which I was working at... bought a bag after much deliberation... wanted to buy another bag but it was a defected good so I decided to leave it to fate but it wasn't there the next day. I guess someone saved it. Oh well, now I have a bag for decoration... lol I forgot to consider a lot of things (so much for 'much deliberation') but I guess it's ok. It seems like my bag is one of its kind.

I am not all that wonderful and I need to work hard to produce the results I want.

I doubt I'll ever wake up from that dream before it's too late.

No... doubting is bad. I will and I must. =) Just hope that my ego can survive such blows. UCAS is down and I desperately want to check because I think one of the courses has rejected me and it's most likely going to be the popular electrical and electronics engineering. I'm not keen on studying in taking up their Chemistry course after one of the members of their faculty got my name wrong! I mustn't be petty though especially since I can't afford to be choosy.

*sighs* Why is everything always about me?

Can I still afford to wait?

So many things bugging me and I'm just ignoring them. I musn't be lazy. I'll need reminders though so if you see me just say one line "Don't be lazy." and hopefully I'll understand what it means. Or perhaps I should come up with a special code or something.

I want to watch Death Note now after Felicia got me all interested and told me that it's a 'thinking' anime/manga/movie? After reading up, there seems to be a lot of scheming. I love evil schemes! And L looks so cute in both the anime and movie (he's the freaky guy with dark eyerings and eyebags, dressed in a white tee and sits with his legs up). I love highly intelligent people. I want to be like them! But nice at the same time.

"Don't be lazy!"

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"Fools will remain as fools unless they are able to admit that they are fools.