Unfortunately my head is high up in the sky and my heart is sinking 20,000 leagues under sea. I cannot hope and I am in no mood to prepare. In short, I'm paranoid and lazy.

From my nosy googling, I found out that 147 people went for the final interview at DSTA. And only 10 gets chosen? And this is only the provisional round. By the time they finished the 2nd round, they probably forgot about me since I know very well I was very forgettable in the final interview. I would kill myself right now but I am a coward. I guess after all the walk-in interviews with customers at IRAS, my brain just turned off and and treated this important interview as just another interview with a taxpayer. Even when they gave me a chance to redeem myself when they asked why they should give me the scholarship, I just sat there, looking very 'stone' and listing really common reasons. I bet I sounded like I did not need it. There wasn't even a hint of passion in my voice! I should have held the Chief Executive's hand and begged him for the scholarship... which would be so undignified of me. I didn't even say something like "I would refuse ALL scholarship offers just for the DSTA scholarship offer" which IS what I will do. There's only one word I can use for myself. (_ _ _ _ _) Go figure.

Still, I must thank the lord for such wonderful results which is really what I wanted. GP was such a pleasant surprise! I was expecting a B but I got an A2! It's been 2 weeks but still the thought of an A for GP releases millions of endorphins in the brain. Better than chocolate and you won't become fat.

And then there's Harry Potter! Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (I think I saw the trailer thrice!) and the 7th book (I forgot the title *sighs*) One is out on 13th July (probably the movie since it's a friday...) and the other is out on 21st July. Strangely I do not have a countdown for the book and the movie... LOL. I still remember the countdown I had for the half-blood prince... I guess I'm not so interested now that Lupin decided to go with Tonks. It was fun reading my comments on HPHBP. Snape is so fun and Alan Rickman is just so wonderful as Snape. Fun fun fun. I just wonder if Snape is going to sacrifice his life for Harry... but Harry's probably going to die anyway.

I shall not speculate... but seeing that my personality thingie (the I/E, N/S, T/F, J/P) is the same as Snape, I guess I should be able to guess wha will happen to Snape?

Anyway, I've came up with a few backup plans if nothing works out... I just have to make sure the backup plans actually WORK.

I am seriously the slowest blogger ever. I started on this blog entry since last week and I am still working on it.

I shall just end it here. Anyway, my last entry is more than a month ago.

Random statement 23
"Self-discipline is very very very very very very important."